When I don’t like something…..anything that everyone else does or not AS MUCH as everyone else does, I literally start going mental thinking about it and my brain starts running through all the reasons why that could be.
Is it just a case that it wasn’t my thing? Were there too many problems I saw? Did my own values or experiences or mood influence it and make me see it differently? But there’s one thing I always come back to and that’s the Hype Monster — which is both a good and bad thing for different reasons.
I am always hungry for new music. So it often happens that I have already heard the song before they have a chance to be hyped. Or a movie. Or maybe a book. I am a true bookworm so I usually read a book before someone comes up to me and says hey…you gotta read this. Its amazing. In those case, its like I’m doing it in my own little personal bubble. I have few to no opinions to influence my thinking and really NO expectations to live up to. It’s something that I may or may not enjoy and that’s all I know about it. It’s a less stressful process overall.
But then let’s take the song/book/movie……Thing that I’m somehow late to the game on…stuff that people RAVE about and which seem to be universally loved. I go…hmmm. This seems to be popular lately. Let’s see what it’s like. But then it really deflates me when I find that it really wasn’t all that. I mean, it’s often the situation that I LIKED it but not as much as everyone else did — I didn’t get that O.M.G….#favsong or the life-changing experience that so many trusted people talked about. All those REASONS that made this thing their favorite. I sit there and wonder that, if I had been a complete newbie to this song and never heard anything about that book, would I have felt differently?
So I sit there all like…”Ok, Thing [btw I don’t actually call it a thing, this is because it can be anything…book/movie/song/video], would I have liked you MORE had I found you back when you just came out and there was relatively no hype? Or would it have been the same? Or was it that maybe you really just weren’t the one for me?”
And *long sigh* obviously, I don’t have the answer to that. It’s not like I go back in time or try that thing in a vacuum where I hear basically nothing about it. But I feel sad for the poor things I could have probably LOVED if I hadn’t such high expectations of them because of all the hype. I’m SO easily wavered with the opinions that I begin to expect too much. So much that it’s hard to read without being influenced by them. I JUST WANT TO BLOCK THEM ALL OUT so I can have my own experience that is free of any hype.
……okay so this post took me an hour to think and perfectly type up so that it exposed my emotions. I think it more than covered what I was feeling and I am being ridiculous because this is what happens when everyone around me is going crazy about Hymn For The Weekend while I am going bonkers wondering if there’s something wrong with me. There I said it. I can practically feel your eyes judging me.
Yours, forever Miss. Bonkers,
P.S. So what about you? Do you ever think about this? Are there any such things you think you probably would have LOVED more if there wasn’t that dreaded hype monster or any sort of built up expectations because of people’s opinions – like if you found them early on? Or do you think you were always destined probably not to LOVE those books? How do you keep those expectations at bay so that you aren’t disappointed later on?