“Don’t” Fit In.

I’ve always felt different, like I was born in the wrong time period, or maybe even on the wrong planet. Have you ever felt that way? Like you just don’t “fit” anywhere or with anyone. You’d likely never realize this if you spent any amount of time with me, but it’s true. Continue reading ““Don’t” Fit In.”


Awkward Encounters.

I’ve recently discovered that, after someone makes a pass at me, I can’t ever feel comfortable around them ever again. Every time they talk to me, I get a pretty strong anxious reaction. I don’t want them to get the impression that I return their feelings, but I also don’t want to insult them by telling them I’m not interested (especially if they’ve gotten the hint and aren’t trying to flirt anymore). I’ve probably shut at least three people out of my life for this reason. I feel bad about it, but Continue reading “Awkward Encounters.”

Fifty Shades Of Yellow.

Banana, cadmium yellow, chartreuse, chiffon, cream, golden, goldenrod, khaki, lemon, mellow yellow, saffron, topaz and yellow ochre….and….and many many many more. So many….shades of Yellow.

Cheerful sunny yellow is an attention getter. Yellow is sunshine. Wearing yellow clothes or

Adding a touch of yellow brightens up any room!

adding just touches of yellow to your clothing will make you feel more joyful and optimistic. It will boost your energy levels and improve your sense of well-being. It is good to adorn your house with yellow accessories and yellow flowers – they will brighten up your mind and enhance your mood.

While it is considered an optimistic color, people lose their tempers more often in yellow rooms, and babies will cry more. It is the most difficult color for the eye to take in, so it can be overpowering if overused. Yellow enhances concentration.

It is a warm color that, like red, has conflicting symbolism. On the one hand, it denotes happiness and joy, but on the other hand yellow is the color of cowardice and deceit. Yellow is for happy people and cowards. Mostly warm and friendly, yellow usually works best as a companion to other colors. – Jacci Howard Bear’s Desktop Publishing Colors and Color Meanings.

Yellow is one of the energetic colors. Because of the high visibility of bright yellow, it is often used for hazard signs and some emergency vehicles. Yellow is cheerful.

All in all, yellow seems an incredibly positive color. In limited amounts, though.

Now….what do you think, is the color of insanity? Some say gray. Some pitch-black. Even others say white, like a ghost. However, I feel insanity is such a strong thing. Sooo…shouldn’t it be represented by a bolder color?? How about yellow? Here are a few things to ponder:

In Russia, a colloquial expression for an insane asylum is “yellow house” because (a long time ago) they used to be painted yellow.

tumblr_nbhmwc7elb1rxmkxeo1_500The Yellow Wallpaper” by Charlotte Gilman Perkins has been tied to a certain form of OCD. Furthermore, the color of the wallpaper has been explored in a number of scholarly literary papers.

Van Gogh’s palette became more and more yellow towards the end of his life. His “insanity” was supposedly caused by lead poisoning because he inadvertently “ate” his paints (“hand to mouth” gestures, holding a brush handle in his mouth, etc.).

Studies on the effects of LSD (& other hallucinogenic drugs) have shown drawings/paintings by “crazy” folks with much more yellow as the effects advanced.

Yellow was said to be Einstein’s favorite color as well as the favorite color of serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer. Some say that yellow is the favorite color of those who display mental extremes.

“Safety yellow” (used on US road signs and packaging) is a bright yellow similar to the color in nature on venomous snakes and insects — and especially so when combined with black. Some say that we instinctively see yellow as dangerous and/or stressful.

On the other hand, it’s worth noting quotes about yellow from the great masters of painting in Western art history: Vincent Van Gogh called it “a color capable of charming God,” Kandinsky said “a picture painted in yellow always radiates spiritual warmth” and Degas said “What a horrible thing yellow is.”

Thus, to sum it, I’d like to say that as is the case with any color, there are mixed meanings.It’s impossible to declare any one color represents something.




P.S. What do you say is the color of insanity? Comment below.

P.P.S. Hey….I hope you like this one. It took a lot of research, ya know…..juuuuust sayin’  😉                   


The HOARDING Disorder

Hehe…guess what today’s daily prompt is?? It’s Treasure. I literally snorted when I first saw it. I mean, c’mon….can’t you see the irony here? My blog is named Zibell’s Treasure Trove, for heaven’s sake! Soooo… I really felt the need to write about this today.

We all have our own definition of treasured belongings. Mine is that a treasured belonging is not only about the things someone special has given to you but it’s about a thing that has a hidden special meaning in your heart. I, for one, have a lot of treasured belongings, some were given by my family or friends or past [insert air- quotes] special people and some are those I’ve bought for myself or maybe some are just things that make me go…‘Oooo Pretty!’ but everybody have their own standard of the “most” and I also have mine. Continue reading “The HOARDING Disorder”

POETRY: Perpetual Paradox

I am a living chaotic mess
Strange, I thought I was
a fan of order, wasn’t I?
I want to do everything
Yet, have the ambition to do nothing.

I am a conflicted individual
Who is soon gonna implode.
I want people to know how scarred I am
Yet, so scared to let them in.

I am a genius that doesn’t make much sense
I’ve been striving for happiness
Yet, holding onto the heaviness of reality.

I am a human contradiction
That hates mirrors
Yet, I smile and preen myself at every chance,
Because I know there’s nobody quite like me.

I am a unique paradox, ain’t I?
Living both inside and outside the box.


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